The White Shades

"I'll tell myself to be easy on myself because I'm still 19, it's okay if I haven't figured out my life fully yet." Most people, especially my age, haven't discovered their own self completely. Me neither. Including passion. People in my culture don't usually talk about passion, especially when it comes to choice of career and make a living. But for me, passion is so important to get a person going. I don't do a small research yet about passion, whether it has been popular term in the past or it's only popular for the millennials like me. Passion is somewhat happening in the world right now. People keep talking about, "What's your passion?", "My passion is on the fashion industry.", "I love youtube and game because it's my passion in life.", anything about passion. But do they really understand their passion? For me, passion is the list of things that give me the chills and excitement whenever I talk ...

I've come to a realization that all people is different. I finally embrace the difference between me and other people and come to a full understanding of the difference between people in this world. If we're about to talk about life, talk about people, talk about human existence, it's not going to end right away. The discussion may not come to a conclusion. The talk may consumes a lot of time. So many aspect in this life that can be discussed for everyone's self growth. What I've realize today is everybody is different. They have different stories to tell and we cannot judge them for their past. They're who they're today because of their past and of course we have no control over their past, even our very own past. We cannot change our past, so do they, why bother to judge other? Our past is what makes us today. It's a part of our growth and our way to find ourselves in this life. To find the reason of our existence. Like one of an influencer ever sa...

It's been a while since my last post here. Haven't been into writing anymore since I started journaling on my own, hand written. Today's topic is self-growth. I'll discover myself and write down what I've been thinking since I woke up this morning. I'm not feeling well under my own skin for the past two months. The peak is now. Last week since the day I write this is Monday. I'm not feeling like myself and I feel I'm losing myself. You might think what am I talking about, am I crazy or what, but really that's what I'm feeling. If you've ever been on my position or even have had experienced such thing, you'll understand. For you who don't understand, it feels like you're missing something inside you. It's like there's a hollow in your heart, your life, that from it, the wind keeps blowing back and forth hardly through your life until you can't feel steady even the hollow supposed to be a counter for the wind. You ...