The White Shades

"I'll tell myself to be easy on myself because I'm still 19, it's okay if I haven't figured out my life fully yet." Most people, especially my age, haven't discovered their own self completely. Me neither. Including passion. People in my culture don't usually talk about passion, especially when it comes to choice of career and make a living. But for me, passion is so important to get a person going. I don't do a small research yet about passion, whether it has been popular term in the past or it's only popular for the millennials like me. Passion is somewhat happening in the world right now. People keep talking about, "What's your passion?", "My passion is on the fashion industry.", "I love youtube and game because it's my passion in life.", anything about passion. But do they really understand their passion? For me, passion is the list of things that give me the chills and excitement whenever I talk ...

Hi! My mid-term test has finished yesterday (yaaayy!!) and yesterday, I had a time to spend with my girls and had a time to spend with myself. What I did was giving myself a good movie to learn from. I know that movie accidentally while browsing through youtube several weeks ago but had just had a time yesterday. And that movie was VERY GOOD oh my God. This post ain't gonna be a movie review. I wanna share the lessons I learned from this movie. The movie is called "Suddenly Seventeen". It is a remake from a western movie titled "17 again." 1/3: Never lose yourself for a man. Yes, yes! This is the first lesson I learned from this movie ever since the beginning. The main female character, Liang, has been in a relationship with his boyfriend, Mao, for 10 years. She's currently 28 and Mao hasn't proposed to her yet. She was desperate. Then a magic chocolate turns her mind to her 17 self. She was very different back then in her 17. She was so lively, so...

In this very mood, I'll write about something that triggers me. Bermula dari keisengan karena tidak ada kerjaan, aku membuka halaman facebook -ku, lalu scrolling sampai bawah-bawah. Sampai pada masa aku SMP. Baru saja lulus SD saat itu. Kira-kira tahun 2010 sampai tahun 2012. Itu masa-masa dark ages bagiku. Tidak, bahkan durasinya lebih lama. Sekitar tahun 2008-2012. Natasha's dark ages of her life . Well , kenapa aku bisa bilang ini dark ages buatku karena di masa itu aku banyak melakukan hal yang memalukan untuk diriku sendiri. Hal-hal yang aku sesali hingga sekarang ini. Dan masih kupertanyakan. Dulu aku seperti itu, seakan-akan mau memberitahu dunia seberapa besar masalahku sendiri yang sebenarnya, kalau kulihat sekarang ini, tidak ada apa-apanya dibanding semua masalah yang ada. Zaman-zaman FB masih trending dan aku rajin sekali posting status yang isinya aneh-aneh, mulai dari galauan khas anak SMP, sampai maki-makian. Ya ampun. Apa yang kulihat dan sebagian su...

Pikiran gue, beberapa jam yang lalu, masih sangat rumit dan ruwet. Ibaratnya, otak gue itu kota Jakarta, semua pikiran-pikiran gue itu adalah mobil dan motor yang berseliweran di mana-mana dengan jumlah dua kali lipat yang biasa melintas di jalanan ibukota, lalu akal sehat gue itu adalah lampu merah yang sedang tidak bekerja. Dan perasaan gue adalah jam macet, yaitu rush hour dan jam pulang kerja. Kebayang kan ribetnya gimana? A lot has been going inside my head . Tapi sekarang, gue udah sadar. Seakan-akan gue ditampar dan dibangunkan dari mimpi buruk. What a lovely time and life to live . Itu bukan kata-kata sarkastik atau sinisme, tapi itu benar-benar sebuah pujian dan sebuah ungkapan syukur gue. Gue mau berbagi untuk kalian semua, yang saat ini merasa sendirian, merasa tidak punya gairah hidup, merasa tidak berguna, merasa ingin mati saja, yang berpikiran mati adalah cara terbaik untuk mengakhiri semua masalah kalian. Semoga kalian bisa mengambil sesuatu dari cerita yang gue ...