The White Shades

Hi! My mid-term test has finished yesterday (yaaayy!!) and yesterday, I had a time to spend with my girls and had a time to spend with myself. What I did was giving myself a good movie to learn from. I know that movie accidentally while browsing through youtube several weeks ago but had just had a time yesterday. And that movie was VERY GOOD oh my God. This post ain't gonna be a movie review. I wanna share the lessons I learned from this movie. The movie is called "Suddenly Seventeen". It is a remake from a western movie titled "17 again." 1/3: Never lose yourself for a man. Yes, yes! This is the first lesson I learned from this movie ever since the beginning. The main female character, Liang, has been in a relationship with his boyfriend, Mao, for 10 years. She's currently 28 and Mao hasn't proposed to her yet. She was desperate. Then a magic chocolate turns her mind to her 17 self. She was very different back then in her 17. She was so lively, so...

Lately I'm not sure what I'm feeling. It feels like riding a roller-coaster everyday. I don't know what should I feel, I don't know how I should react. I just... don't know. I feel like I'm losing track of my life. I'm getting out of track. Well, let's see through my past then. I was an introverted girl and so am I now. I've never been comfortable with myself enough to depend on myself rather than depending on somebody who has a close relationship with me like my best friend. That sucks, I know, not being able to depend on yourself and to you just depend on others for your moral support. I should have been the best friend I need myself. It feels like time has passed so much since I wrote my last reflection. I had been doing great actually, but not for this past 2-3 weeks. I can't recall exactly what makes me being like this. The thoughts just coming so sudden and filling my head, even they sometimes make me grasping for air so much that ...

Love means a thousand things. Every person has a different concept about love and mine happened to be you. Sounds cheesy, huh? Well, today is some kind of a special day for me, with a roller-coaster mood, roller-coaster mind and thoughts running inside my head. I wanna write this in two language, English and Bahasa, so that I can say the cheesy part in English so it won't be any cheesier than if I write it in Bahasa. LOL. Love. 4 characters. A word, but could means a thousand things. People love talking about love. They say love is a wonderful thing, love is something you need to conquer the world, love hurts, love makes you crazy, and et cetera. Even the extreme one, love doesn't exist. Does it? For me, love exists. It comes in many form that may be hard for some people to realize that it's love. Love itself is a complicated one, and falling in love is another thing too, almost as complicated as the mother. Falling in love. Most people have fallen in lov...

Sekarang udah bulan Maret. Januari dan Februari rasanya cepat sekali, ya. Enggak sih, ini bohong. Februari buatku rasanya lama banget. Sedangkan Maret ini rasanya cepat banget, sekarang udah tanggal 5, besok tanggal 6. Wow. Cukup banyak hal yang terjadi dalam waktu dua bulan ini. Aku sempat belajar untuk percaya sama orang lain sebulan belakangan ini, dan... dikecewakan. Ternyata aku memang gak boleh percaya sama orang lain.  Kepercayaan itu sebenarnya buatku adalah suatu hal yang fragile, bahkan sangat fragile. Memberikannya kepada orang yang salah, maka hancur juga lah kepercayaanmu pada orang itu, pada dirimu sendiri, bahkan pada dunia, seperti yang aku alami sekarang ini. Masalahnya adalah, aku dari awal memang susah percaya, susah membuka diri pada orang lain. Lalu saat aku sudah membuka diri, ternyata keputusanku salah besar. Aku tidak seharusnya membuka diri pada orang lain. Ini mungkin tindakan proteksi, tindakan egoisku untuk diri sendiri. Aku memilih untuk me...